Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Although, tomorrow will be day 3 without eating and if he refuses food, I'm gona have to take him back to the doctor.
Like I said, just another day in paradise:)
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008
I am still frustrated with the doctor but I will deal.
On a different note, I have started reading,"The Happiest Toddler on the Block" and I have learned a lot about how to deal with my "spirited child." Thank you Sarah for telling me about this book! I am finding myself not nearly as frustrated and being able to repeat back to him his frustrations and reason with him is helping us immensely today! I haven't gotten to the clapping technique yet but after reading your blog, I tried it out a different way and he is doing ok with it. We will see how my little cave-man progresses. Haha
Friday, September 19, 2008
He had overtaken our bed. I was halfway off the edge...here's a better picture of him sprawled across my queen bed(I never thought he could take up this much room)
He absolutely tore the bed up, took the whole thing over and looked oh so precious doing it:)
That's my daily vanity in the 3rd person:)
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Today when I had my appt, first of all, we switched insurance(not by choice) so I pay a heck of a lot more of a heck of a lot less, so instead of having the amazing Kaiser where everything I need is in one building, I get Aetna aka "go to a million different doctors and buildings in 5 different cities just to find out if your pregnant."
So, I have the appt, I have to check all those boxes about pregnancy history which is really hard for the nurses and doctor to grasp the fact...3 total pregnancies, 1 live birth, one miscarraige, and this one. Out of the other two, both were vaginal deliveries. They looked at me like I was stupid,"So, it's actually 1 vaginal delivery.." like they know. NO ITS TWO!!! I really had to explain it in detail to 5 different people that I had to deliver this "fetal demise" as they kept calling it. That's really something to want to re-live over and over in a matter of an hour.
Anyhow, thats just the half of it. So, everything as far as THIS pregnancy is going well until they inform me that my uterus isn't as big as it should for as far along as I am. I immediately assume, ok, well I'm pretty sure I am 5 weeks from conception anyways but the doctor had told me 7.5 so whatever. They go straight to their little voice recording device and state,"patient has smaller uterus than expected due date. this is cause for concern due to the patient's history of fetal demise, possible abnormality." I never even crossed my mind till they said it. Now those old feelings are coming up and everyone keeps telling me, just relax and wait.
Oh yeah...WAIT. That's exactly what I'm going to have to do. I have to go back tomorrow morning to fill out more paperwork, then go to a completely seperate town for a lab test, wait a week for an appt with the doctor then go to another town to a gentic specialist who will give me the 1st trimester sonogram(even thought the doctor stated that he could do it himself) because of my history. All the genetic specialist is going to tell me is that I am a carrier for cystic fibrosis. Duane is not, problem squashed.
I am so frustrated with my insurance, with my doctor, with myself for freaking out, and at time for moving so slow. I have to wait 2 weeks to find out if I am carrying another dead child. I am panicking. God, give me strength.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
this is hilarious...he asks for a napkin and he wipes from his belly up to his eyes...big man:)
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Also, my son now knows 4 songs and actually will randomly bust out singing them
1. Itsey Bitsey Spider
2. Popcorn Popping
3. Old McDonald
4. All I Wanna Do by Sugarland
yeah, thats right...i hear all day,"oo-ooo-ooo-ooo-ooo"
It is so unbelieveable adorable and hilarious and I just relaize more and more that he is a big boy and picks up everything he sees and hears.
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Then tonight, I watched The Locator. This man is like a PI reuniting people with their families. As I had 2 brothers that I met for the first time almost 10 years ago now, it really evoked such strong emotion in me. I cried, of course:) For anyone interested, it's on the WE channel on Saturdays. I don't remember what time because I just pressed the DVR button to record but you have got to watch this show.
Kade's new thing: pretending to wash Duane's and my hair. He opens one hand, pokes it with his index finger, rubs his hands together and rubs our heads. It took us the longest time to figure out what the heck he was doing! Haha...he is just too much:)
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Also, a couple of funny pictures from the last couple days...
This is Kade's mischevious look right before he books it into his room to a dead end which brings nothing but tickle torture and nap time:)
and another one taken by the crazy face himself with Catherine's feet in the background...mwaaahahaha
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
I'll post the new hair when I'm in a better mood...and I don't like the way she styled it...it kinda looks like a bowl cut HAHA...I'll work with it